I've been MIA from this blog for awhile. While on the phone with my Mom this morning I realized that I have not been sharing the happenings in our family with anyone lately. I don't honestly know how many of my friends/family even read my blog but it feels easier to write about it here and let the pieces fall as they will.
Barney has been in a Psychiatric Hospital since April 18th. He's in the day program so he comes home every afternoon and sleeps in his own bed but its a lock-down unit none-the-less. Not exactly information that you want to shout from the rooftops. I've been traumatized, embarrassed and overwhelmed by the whole thing. The poor kid spent his 8th birthday there! Mommy guilt galore....
My immediate family is aware. A few close friends who do not live in town were told, but I did not reach out. Once again I have isolated myself in my darkest hours. Not the healthiest response but I pull inside myself when the going gets tough.
We have a huge meeting with Barney's school tomorrow morning. It is school anxiety which landed him in the hospital to begin with. Not really looking forward to this meeting. The Hospital does not want to keep him as an inpatient long-term, which is a good thing but I am not confident in the school's ability to keep him relaxed and feeling safe which is imperative to his successful re-entry.
Barney has not been in school at all since April 13th. He was pulled out of school due to medical necessity on March 19th and returned for half-days between March 26-April 13. We desperately need the school system to admit that they are not equipped to deal with him. The reality is that we live in the wrong area. The closest appropriate private placement is over 70 miles away. I have no idea how this is going to resolve but I am scared for my kid!!!
